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Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Year End Holidays

At the very last minute, i.e. today, I have planned an impromptu getaway. Well it's more for the hubby. He has been so bogged down with work and getting busier by the day, and mentally too exhausted, so I decided to take him on a getaway. All he knows is we will be hotel hopping (3 to be exact). 

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He managed to get leave for 3 days next week. I on the other hand, still need to carry my laptop and check my phone, but it's all great. We will be in KL city the first day, then driving up to PD for one night, and back to KL city again for a night at a hotel with buffet breakfast and dinner all in! Well,
the stays in KL are thanks to my brother for giving me a booklet of Dorsett Prestige Club vouchers! It's time to use a couple of it! 

Oh I am so in the holiday mood! Yippie! 

Ok ok, back to work now :)  I have a deadline to meet by tomorrow *gulp* 


Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Working again

Aaahhh yes, hello guys and gals. It's been really long since the last I sat and typed a post. Well, I have started working again. Remember the freelance thingy I was doing? Well, it evolved to a full time job, 7 days a week. Yes, Mondays to Fridays, 10am to 5pm and Saturdays and Sundays, 11am to 6pm! Haha  

I have started my own company officially. Proper registration etc all done. I am no longer just doing work as and when I please. Now it's serious work and I have deadlines to meet. Above all, I still work from home. My kitchen counter is officially my work area. I try to get it cleared before the hubs get home. Imagine coming home from a long day at work, battling through traffic, to a home that's messy! 

It's a lot of hard work, and I don't get  benefits as compared to working with a company, but heck, it's way more rewarding. The satisfaction that I get out of it, and knowing that my hard work is rightfully paid off, is an amazing feeling. 

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Hoping to find time to continue my passion for blogging as well. One thing about working from home is that you tend to do house chores too, and at times it can become too overwhelming that I lose track of time. Work, house chores, ad hoc meetings with clients... 

Honestly, right now, I am in the holiday mood! Haha

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Wednesday, October 22, 2014

The question is why?

My thoughts here may be very provoking... but really, the question is why. 

We have been brought up with the thinking that we are not allowed to celebrate any festivities for 1 year from the day someone passes away. I have never really observed such things probably because I never had anyone so close to me passing away. So when NanaJi passed away, the automatic response I give people when they ask if I am celebrating so and so, is “no”. 

I did a quick search on the net for such tradition / custom / law, yes, there are religions that have strict rules to abide by. But almost in all my readings, it states that it’s to give time to the family to grief. 

But having overcome my grief, I am beginning to question this bereavement custom / tradition. If we are not suppose to celebrate anything, then I was wrong to celebrate my graduation from NLP, I am wrong to be happy, I was wrong to transform myself into the v 2.0 that I am now, I was wrong to invite friends over, I was wrong to go out for dinners/lunches and meet up with friends, I was wrong in a lot of things that I did once I came out of my grief. 

Then I ask myself has NanaJi ever not go to the Gurdwara during festive days because someone has passed away? No, I don’t remember. I only remember he is always there, in the Gurdwara. That was his way of celebrating any occasion; spending time in HIS home on earth. Well now I am sure he is having a gala time in HIS real home in heavens above!

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

♪ The Happy Song ♫

It might seem crazy what I'm about to say
Sunshine she's here, you can take a break
I'm a hot air balloon that could go to space
With the air, like I don't care baby by the way

Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like that's what you wanna do

Here come bad news talking this and that, yeah,
Well, give me all you got, and don't hold it back, yeah,
Well, I should probably warn you I'll be just fine, yeah,
No offense to you, don't waste your time
Here's why

Bring me down... can't nothing...
Bring me down... my level's too high...
Bring me down... can't nothing...
Bring me down, I said (let me tell you now)

This song has been my lift me up song before my NLP. And today, I realize, it's all NLP. Haha 
Really, nothing should ever effect you. As I type this, I am in so much pain - periods. I had two months pain free periods and this is just back to square one. Well, probably because I was even late for 4 days, and my system went into shock when I had to jump in deep pool in my swimming class last week! Haha 

Well, I can choose to be upset about it or like right now, I decided to listen to the Happy Song and type. I may have to just lie down for a while and curl in bed to ease the pain, but all in due time. It's not like I haven't experienced this excruciating pain before. I am just trying a different approach :)

Enjoy!


Sunday, October 5, 2014

Mother oh in law

Yes, the universal issue / topic / problem! I have had my share of this issue for a long long time. Well from the day I got married and walked into the house to the very second last day of my NLP, Sept 13th 2014, which was also her birthday. 

Hubby wasn't too keen in bringing her out to dinner on that day because well, every time we used to, I will end up feeling upset, or annoyed to the very least. And he didn't want to spoil my NLP state especially since I was going to graduate the next day. Anyway, I insisted that we should go out for dinner because it will mean something to her. I mean, c'mon, we all want to feel special on that very special day right? 

And so we went to dinner at Madam Kwan and thereafter we went to Starbucks. Yes, my MIL enjoys having coffee from Starbucks too. Let me just sum it up for you on how it went - hubby almost fainted in disbelief that his wife and mother were chatting, laughing, sharing jokes, taking photos, and hugged. 

What was different? 

Me. 

Everything that has happened in my life is a consequences of my choices. No one is to be blamed for it. It's a choice I have made all along. Like the trainer replied to one of my statement "I have been sucked dry emotionally, mentally and worse of all financially ever since getting married" - all she said to me was "It was YOUR choice. You chose to be the one to spear head your marriage, your renovations, building your own home. You chose not to wait, but you chose to get things done. So why are you complaining?" - Ouch.

I am not saying that I will have an awesome relationship and bond with my MIL, but I know that I will be very "neutral" inside when I see her from now on. Not how I used to be the moment I even hear her name, voice, or even look at her - so angry and agitated. Well I used to feel the same even from being just at the gate at my parents house! Hah! :p