Thursday, May 23, 2013

We are not cursed

As hubby was driving me today to IJN this evening, we were talking about an online acquaintance. We look around us and we see that there are others who go through a lot worse than we have in terms of our TTC journey. We used to feel that perhaps we were cursed not to have a baby. But we both agreed that we are not. It's either not our time, and it may never be, but we are still blessed in many other ways. Perhaps that is why when this came up, we are still together today and we will be forever and a day. If that makes any sense.

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

The power to be a super woman! (Well, sort off)

Have you ever wondered from where you get the stregnth out of no where to be strong, have the energy to care for another being, not getting enough sleep yet able to be awake etc? 

Well, I realized that we women somehow have this in us. Well, let me be honest, not all women okay! Some are just too pampered that if they have to do a bit of house chores, they are already complaining. Imagine if they had to work like a maid - I think they would pass out that instant! Hah!

Ma make shift bed
Anyway, I will be staying over at IJN until NanaJi is discharged. I left work yesterday evening for home, gathered some things (or should I say -  a lot of things), packed my bag, showered, and we both left. Hubby decided to send me and pick me up this morning. 

Right through the night, I hardly slept. Each time NanaJi moves let alone wake up, I get up. It's like I automatically am on a standby mode. Hubby came to pick me up by 6am and headed to our home, and I got somethings done and was on my way to office. 

I am still energized. But I also know that I may burn out someday soon. 

This time I have decided not to put hubby and our home in the back seat. I will leave office, go home first and then leave for IJN. 

Hubby no doubt has been a great pillar. Not once he hesitated to offer to pay for NanaJi's room, nor did he hesitate to allow me to stay for the unknown amount of nights at IJN to be there for NanaJi. 

Any blessings that I have should honestly go to him. I am able to do what I do for those who matter is because of him. Love you Jaan! (Like lah he reads my blog).

Monday, May 20, 2013

Scared Shit

My father, my mentor, my teacher, my pillar, my adviser, my friend, my buddy, my spiritual guide, my NanaJi - is ill. Yes, to some of you your grandfather is just a grandfather. To me, he is all that I mentioned and probably more. I was brought up by them ever since I was a baby. I did go back to my parents when I started school only for a few years, and then back again to my grandparents. Hence, he is father, and she my mother. If you can't fathom this bond or the closeness, then probably you shouldn't even continue reading. 

Everyone tells me that he is old and I should start to accept the fact that he may not be around anymore. But it's like I tell you to accept the fact that your father or your mother or even someone you love dearly won't be around anymore - how does that feel? Seriously, right now, I don't want to hear those words. So why do people still go on and on? Yes, he is old, but he is healthier than my own dad. Yes, you read that right. Heck, he even can do stretches better than me! 

It is indeed a scary moment in my life right now. I am just hoping that he would be back to his normal self again. I dread the day I wake up and know he is no longer around. 

Amazing how 2013 keeps bringing more and more bad stuff eh? My dad isn't doing good either. But that's not my concern right now. Honestly, my only concern - my grandparents.

Sometimes I just have to let my fear out in here. Thank you to each and everyone of you - for always being there. Yes yes, even the many silent readers (thank you for your emails!). Love you all!  Hugs!

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Introducing Greenleaf scented sachets

Are you a fan of scented candles or sachets? Some imported candles and sachets can be really pricey. And those that are cheap, aren't that great. I have tried one from Metrojaya, and oh boy, are they sure their Lavender is really Lavender? When you sniff the scent, it doesn't seem to do justice to what's written on the outside of the sachet. 

Now, let me introduce to you Greenleaf products. It is marketed under the brand name Lovely Scents in Malaysia. No no, it's not Lovely Lace:/

Each fragrance is created in-house, making them unique and specifically formulated to work effectively in every product – ensuring the signature quality that our valuable customers have come to expect from Greenleaf for over 35 years.

Well, like this page and stand a chance to win one 1 scented sachet and 1 scented candle :)

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Roasting Capsicums

Have you ever tried roasting capsicums? Trust me, you should. It's so juicy & sweet. After I read about it here, I just had to try.

Step 1: Wash and pet dry the capsicum

Step 2: Place it on the gas stove over low fire. Turn it around from time to time

Step 3: Once all sides are done, place the capsicum in a ziplock bag

Step 4: A couple of minutes later, scrape the burnt skin and deseed it

Step 5: Enjoy!

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Coffee Addict

.....studies had demonstrated that people who take in a minimum of one hundred milligrams of caffeine per day (about the amount in one cup of coffee) can acquire a physical dependence that would trigger withdrawal symptoms that include headaches, muscle pain and stiffness, lethargy, nausea, vomiting, depressed mood, and marked irritability.- Wikipedia
Based on the above, then yes, I am a coffee addict. Oh God, what happened to having cha (tea)? Growing up, we have always had tea time. Yes, ask any punjabi family, they will tell you, it's become a part of us to have tea in the late afternoons / evenings. I used to HATE coffee. Oh wait a minute, my bestie says hate is a strong word. So ok, I used to dislike coffee. I remember when hubby & I were just beginning to be friends, he took me to Coffee Bean, and I just looked at him and said, I ain't going in. You can have a takeaway but no coffee places as such for me. (Can you imagine, he still married me with that kinda stubbornness?!) Hahah

Fast forward today - all I can say is, I am a coffee addict (Blame it on my husband. Thanks to the hubby maybe?).

My day will be jaded if I have had no coffee that morning. I can go without food, but not without coffee. I love to try out new coffee joints although I am not so adventures as I'd like to be. 

As I finish this post, I am sipping on Starbucks VIA® Colombia. Later today I will be redeeming yet again a coffee from São Paulo :)  

Coffee anyone? 

Monday, May 13, 2013

Mother's Day

Something strange happened this Mother's Day. No no, I am not pregnant (oh how I wish I am). Anyway, hubby out of the blue says to me, "Bie, I'd like to wish you Happy Mother's Day". My first reaction "Huh?", followed by "Oh, on behalf of Brownie is it?". He says no. Then he touched my tummy and said, because we were so close to having our baby grow in here. And gave my tummy a kiss.

Now isn't that just the sweetest thing? He made me emo. And then my niece and nephew wished me too. All the more emo!

On another note, here's a shot of Brownie

"Mommy, since it's Mother's Day, I will behave and be all cute today".

Friday, May 10, 2013


Brazilian waxes differ from regular bikini waxes because hair is removed in the front, back and everything in between. A "landing strip" is typically left in the front, but some clients opt for everything removed.- 

Ahh yes, the must try once in a lifetime experience! Haha 

I can't remember when exactly was my first time, but ever since then, I prefer doing a Brazilian wax to shaving, or trimming.. Why? Because it's so super smooth, clean in, out and around, and there's no itchiness to deal with. Oh there will not be any ingrown hair either.

I remember my first experience. I told my threading lady that I'd like to try. She was kind enough to give me a last appointment. Oh thank heavens she did! I was so nervous, but yet very stubborn to try. I told myself, hey, at least once I should do it. And I wouldn't have gone to anyone else but her. I am comfortable with her. 

I changed, and naturally I was shy at first. Then I thought - she sees many people's down under on a daily basis (women and men)... so what the heck. Well, she applied the wax at the sides of my thigh, and I yelped a little. She continues talking to me, asking me things, and I finally began to curse and man was I sweating! Then she asked me to turn around... I was like what? why? She said well, to do your back now. Don't expect to have a smooth front inside out, and the back you just leave it. I am like oh wow. Okay. 

I forgot to mention that in between, I must have begged her to stop a hundred times. And now you know why I said thank heavens I was the last appointment? Yeap, all sorts of nasty cursing I did. Which of course at the end of it all, we both laughed! 

Nothing beats Brazilian waxing. If you want it to be less painful over time, never shave or trim in between. Even the hair that grows will begin to be finer and eventually lesser. Mind you, some of us can grow a jungle down under, no thanks to our genes.    

Oh when I say wax in between, I mean it. The insides that has hair. All gone. 

How long does it take? 20 min max. How long you get to enjoy it? It varies. 3 weeks to a month, or maybe more. 

So, what are you waiting for? Do it once at least eh:p  

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Boot Camp

I have always heard & read about Boot Camps, but never was really keen in taking the step to joining one. The reason is probably because 1 - I'm shy, 2 - I don't know the trainer (having had experience with a personal trainer, my expectations for one is very high because I was definitely with one of the best), 3 - timing of the sessions didn't fit me - some Boot Camps have their classes on weekdays as well.

I started to consider Boot Camp when I read about Suanie's experience. Lo and behold, our ex personal trainer cum friend is organizing his very own Boot Camp! So yes, I am excited. 

For more info:

If you are keen in hooking up with the trainer that I can vouch for, then contact me lah!  :)
Oh and please, help to forward this k? 
You never know who might just be ecstatic about it!   :p  Muchas Gracias



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