We have been contemplating on trying again. We just haven't made up our mind what do we try. Traditional? ICSI? Supplements? As much as I started reading up on some information here and there, hubby has been a bit off the path.
|Back to the drawing board|
Finally one night, he sat me down and he talked. He says he is definitely wanting to try again, anything or everything, BUT the image of me crying or rather wailing my lungs out hasn't really been put behind. That image still haunts him. And he says he just can't see me go through what we did all over again. Because as much as we want to be positive, we still have to be strong enough to cope if it is a negative.
I just nodded. Memories fled back of January 15th. It is true, he may be able to pull through it again, but I may not be able to. Only those who are in this journey would understand what I mean. Well, wait, even those who had gone through this journey and were successful at the end, can forget how to be sensitive towards us who are still trying - so no, only we understand what we feel.
Perhaps that is why I couldn't sleep at night. Bad dreams - one after another. My mind wasn't in peace.
Anyway, one thing I know - we will try again, just not too sure when. But definitely before I am 35. Cuz I don't think I want to try after I pass that age. And when we do try, it will be full fledged commitment from us both.