Wednesday, October 22, 2014

The question is why?

My thoughts here may be very provoking... but really, the question is why. 

We have been brought up with the thinking that we are not allowed to celebrate any festivities for 1 year from the day someone passes away. I have never really observed such things probably because I never had anyone so close to me passing away. So when NanaJi passed away, the automatic response I give people when they ask if I am celebrating so and so, is “no”. 

I did a quick search on the net for such tradition / custom / law, yes, there are religions that have strict rules to abide by. But almost in all my readings, it states that it’s to give time to the family to grief. 

But having overcome my grief, I am beginning to question this bereavement custom / tradition. If we are not suppose to celebrate anything, then I was wrong to celebrate my graduation from NLP, I am wrong to be happy, I was wrong to transform myself into the v 2.0 that I am now, I was wrong to invite friends over, I was wrong to go out for dinners/lunches and meet up with friends, I was wrong in a lot of things that I did once I came out of my grief. 

Then I ask myself has NanaJi ever not go to the Gurdwara during festive days because someone has passed away? No, I don’t remember. I only remember he is always there, in the Gurdwara. That was his way of celebrating any occasion; spending time in HIS home on earth. Well now I am sure he is having a gala time in HIS real home in heavens above!

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

♪ The Happy Song ♫

It might seem crazy what I'm about to say
Sunshine she's here, you can take a break
I'm a hot air balloon that could go to space
With the air, like I don't care baby by the way

Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like that's what you wanna do

Here come bad news talking this and that, yeah,
Well, give me all you got, and don't hold it back, yeah,
Well, I should probably warn you I'll be just fine, yeah,
No offense to you, don't waste your time
Here's why

Bring me down... can't nothing...
Bring me down... my level's too high...
Bring me down... can't nothing...
Bring me down, I said (let me tell you now)

This song has been my lift me up song before my NLP. And today, I realize, it's all NLP. Haha 
Really, nothing should ever effect you. As I type this, I am in so much pain - periods. I had two months pain free periods and this is just back to square one. Well, probably because I was even late for 4 days, and my system went into shock when I had to jump in deep pool in my swimming class last week! Haha 

Well, I can choose to be upset about it or like right now, I decided to listen to the Happy Song and type. I may have to just lie down for a while and curl in bed to ease the pain, but all in due time. It's not like I haven't experienced this excruciating pain before. I am just trying a different approach :)


Sunday, October 5, 2014

Mother oh in law

Yes, the universal issue / topic / problem! I have had my share of this issue for a long long time. Well from the day I got married and walked into the house to the very second last day of my NLP, Sept 13th 2014, which was also her birthday. 

Hubby wasn't too keen in bringing her out to dinner on that day because well, every time we used to, I will end up feeling upset, or annoyed to the very least. And he didn't want to spoil my NLP state especially since I was going to graduate the next day. Anyway, I insisted that we should go out for dinner because it will mean something to her. I mean, c'mon, we all want to feel special on that very special day right? 

And so we went to dinner at Madam Kwan and thereafter we went to Starbucks. Yes, my MIL enjoys having coffee from Starbucks too. Let me just sum it up for you on how it went - hubby almost fainted in disbelief that his wife and mother were chatting, laughing, sharing jokes, taking photos, and hugged. 

What was different? 


Everything that has happened in my life is a consequences of my choices. No one is to be blamed for it. It's a choice I have made all along. Like the trainer replied to one of my statement "I have been sucked dry emotionally, mentally and worse of all financially ever since getting married" - all she said to me was "It was YOUR choice. You chose to be the one to spear head your marriage, your renovations, building your own home. You chose not to wait, but you chose to get things done. So why are you complaining?" - Ouch.

I am not saying that I will have an awesome relationship and bond with my MIL, but I know that I will be very "neutral" inside when I see her from now on. Not how I used to be the moment I even hear her name, voice, or even look at her - so angry and agitated. Well I used to feel the same even from being just at the gate at my parents house! Hah! :p

Saturday, October 4, 2014

I AM beautiful

I have never said those words to myself. Never. Never said I am beautiful. I hated the mirror. Only until and after NLP, I looked at myself in the mirror. Really looked. And the person that I saw, isn't bad at all. 

I remember during class, we came to the topic of limiting beliefs. Oh I had so many! I volunteered to be the "client" on the "change chair" (The trainer gave the name of the chair next to her when doing demo on processes the "change chair"). When she asked me what was my limiting belief - I said I am not beautiful. Everyone in the class went "What?", "Are you crazy?", "For real *my name*?".... Haha And so I went up to the chair with my limiting belief... and when I came down back to my seat, I was smiling from ear to ear. Wow, the feeling of that disgusting, not nice to look at, all gone. The weight of it, just lifted and flew away. 

The next morning, I looked at the mirror. I actually looked at the person staring back at me. The next few days, I looked a little longer. Examining that person. And on the last day of my NLP, I smiled looking at that person, and told myself, I am beautiful. I took a selfie, and I just kept smiling. No filter used, just me. 

And here the old me used to let others define my beauty. Define how I think I look.
Everyone is beautiful. If you see beauty in you, you will see beauty in everyone and everything else. Well, that is if your conscious and unconscious mind is in harmony of course!

And on that note, I leave you with an awesome speech by Dananjaya H. "I see something in you".... 

Yes, I see something in you. Yes you. I see a beautiful soul inside.

Friday, October 3, 2014


I have only explored Facebook. I tried once to get on to the tweeting world, but gave up after my first attempt. Now that I will be offering Facebook Management as part of my business services, I have decided to explore further and get the hang of Twitter. So if my client wants me to do Twitter for them, I can say yes.

I've been reading FB vs Twitter, and I always thought it's the same. But what I have gathered is that if you want to share something in real time, then Twitter it is. People say that Facebook is for connecting with the people you went to school with and Twitter is for people you wished you had gone to school with.

So old school kan? At the end of 2014, I have decided to use Twitter. Wait, learn to use Twitter. 
So, any tips and tricks?

Thursday, October 2, 2014

An online friend who became a real life friend

Have you ever thought that someone you know online, will end up becoming a real life friend? Well, I am so glad to have found a true friend in the wonderful soul behind The Missus Blogs. We met for the first time about a month before she was going to go off to Australia. What timing we thought, but nevertheless we were glad we met. Finally! It was so nice to be able to sit and talk and share stuff which we knew about each other, but yet, it's not the same when we talk about it. 

Yes, hubs and I did meet her briefly (the real first time) when her dad passed away. There was just something in me that told me I must pay my first and last respect. Probably I lost NanaJi and I knew exactly how she felt. The closeness she had with her dad. I remember my bestie and her mom came to pay their first and last respect to NanaJi in his own home, and it meant something to me. 

We met another time for lunch before she left, and I wished we had met sooner. I wished now that we could have some girls time out. Yes yes, especially now that I have done NLP, I am so different towards meeting up, chatting, keeping in touch! 

And I cannot forget, both times we met, she gave me so many gifts! She just knew what I would use and will begin to use... Yes, yes, if you are reading this, I am using the make up remover too! I have started wearing makeup! Haha

As I type this, I can smell the shampoo scent lingering in my hair! Ahhh fresh! 

Thank you babe, for being a friend. And thank you for all the gifts again!! :) 

Next when we meet, we have to take photo(s)!!


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